Kimmie Story Paradise

14.02.2012 The day when i am Mrs Wong

2012-02-16T15:34:00.009+08:00

14.02.2012

I was actually very sick and was on medical leave for 2 days for 13 and 14th Feb.

HBB just ask me to apply leave without telling me what he is up to and i was in fact still not in a clear state of mind as the medication somehow did play a part into it.

Around 8.45pm, He ask me where is his perfume? i was like "what, u asking a sickly pax to find ur perfume? He insisted and i surrender by searching his perfume.

Opening the cupboard was a bouquet of blue rose and i still said "oh the last yr rose was still here! this show how strong is the medication and definitely i am not in a very sober state. LOL.

He was like i just bought. Frankly speaking, my next movement was to close the cupboard and goes back to sleep. Indeed i did close and quickly open it again....Hahahaha...thinking of it now made me laugh non-stop.

Attached with the card "To Fries, will you marry me? From hamburger?

The moment i turned around, he just stand up with the ring inside the box. I was like stunned totally stunned.

After about 10 sec, i was like "hey u are not kneeling down!"

He replied "i scare u cannot see the diamond clearly so let u have a clearer picture first and knelted down in front of me. What a good excuse lei....

Then he ask me again "will u marry me? and my ans is ...haha...chinese "shui bian"

He was like -__- " in the face.

The later part i cannot rem but all i rem is ....he put the ring on my finger, i hug him and i went back to sleep.

Maybe this was not what he initally planned or expect the outcome to be.

However, to me...it short and simple but sweet. I feel so pampered.

Finally in my blog, a good news to share with pple.

Last but not least, Happy Valentine day to all! :p

End

So tired...Really tired....

2011-06-30T21:02:00.006+08:00

I am so tired of them making me so tired.....

Thankful for them for making me becoming like this...me....

Fucking hate this lifestyle...fucking hate the sight of myself...

How i wish i wasn't born.

Nobody is perfect...

Kimberly

Thoughts and feelings

2011-04-07T16:21:00.005+08:00

Feel like blogging so here it is.... i will be leaving my current company and moving forward to another new environment soon most probably mid of april. Actually in working society, is there really someone that can be a definition of "friend" In SPH, i found it and i am glad that they allowed me to be part of their family. Sometime there might be conflicts, but we handle it well and i appreciate them for tolerating my temper which i know that they are controlling. it really hard to find true friend now... When you no longer play a part in this organisation, everything changed. I just had a minor accident and it was caused by a MIC guy. But luckily everything is being solved smoothly. but my baby red car haiz...workshop for 3-4days today finally they call and i can collect back my baby yeah! Actually being alone by yourself is not scary at all. Just feel a sense of loneliness sometimes that all. Last but no least, happy birthday my beautiful daughter yenting! stay pretty always love you and of course my adorable niece nicole chew. always so hiao and chio muacks!

Emo..crying.. reality...unpredictable....

2011-01-09T00:12:00.008+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011 TO EVERYONE!

Recently, i just managed to find back my long lost primary school friend, xiuhui. i am so delighted that i found her. afterall, FB is good in certain ways...lol

There had been a lot of changes happening around me. A lot of unpredictable events happen and some of the event, i choose not to know anything cos sometime it is better to be unknown. Even if you know it, it only hurts more.

You may say the word "hypocrite" if you think that is the way.

As years goes by, older day by day, i keep things to myself most of the time.

But sometime you just want to say it out to make yourself feel better.

So i will just write it out in my post.

A lot of things is hard to come by and it might only happen once in your lifetime.

I force myself to smile even though there is something hindering all of us to move forward

I pretend that nothing happen whenever we gather together.

I tried to tell myself that everything still remain the same as normal as what we used to be....

But i know i am lying to myself

I miss the gathering, i miss the movie outlet, i miss the laughter that we had in a particular house.

I know i am not the first in their list to invite most of the time cos i know i had not done a very good role as a cousin and my personality/ characteristics might not match with them and my temper...room for improvement..lol

Recently, it is my greatest 2nd aunt birthday which is today actually. happy birthday mama! stay healthy and pretty always...

Anyway frankly speaking until now, i still dun know what create the dramatic changes between us...when/where/how it happen i am totally clueless.

I finally realised this change when there is one particular day my colleague ask me "how come nowadays you never mentioned your gathering with your cousins?

it dawned on me. but i replied "we are busy with our life so no time at the moment"

But she replied: "i got see your FB lei, but never see you inside the photo"

I pretended that i never heard her and tried to dial a no to call. most of the time, she will ask my outing and she sort of envy the bonding between me and my cousins as we almost gather every 1-2months. To her, it hard to come by in her pt of views.

Emo is the word...crying inside my heart. the moment i found my pri sch friend that where i realise that if you really use your heart to found or treasure someone, you will find all means to look for her. i cannot found her becos i always type "Lim Xiuhui" but she put as "Lim Siew Huay"

that why i cannot found her in FB at all and i thgt she did not create acct in FB. I did send msg to her on friendster but no reply so i assume that a/c is not "live" anymore and my lead end in that area and disheartened for quite sometime.

Of course, you can't always expect things to be as what you expected it to be. life will never be so good. but i just hope that it can change for the better to where it used to be...but it hard huh?

i just wanna say...u all definitely had a place in my heart but not expressing it doesn't mean i dun care it just that i did tried but maybe still not good enough to enter to your world.

By the way, i had graduated. FB had the photo and i will just upload my most precious 3 little niece and nephew which i considered as my favourite photo. They always make me laugh.

Natalie: (Digging her nose)

Me: Stop doing that!

Natalie: ........... (i thgt she was going to tell me ok or "sorry or oops!)

Natalie: Yiling yiyi, do you know that you scare me?

Me: ......(speechless) er...

Natalie: You should say sorry to me NOW!

Me: O..ok..sorry.

Natalie: Cheeky smile.

--------End -------

Nicole: Yiyi can i play your phone?

Me: Pls wait for a while nicole

after a few second...

Nicole: yiyi can i play your phone?

Me: pls give me 5 min ok?

Nicole: 1,2,3,4,5 yiyi time up!

Me: NICOLE! *agitated me

Nicole: Yiyi, i love you...kiss on the cheek

me: *pass my phone to her. she win*
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Lost.....Reality.........Cruelty

2010-05-22T15:18:00.011+08:00

Started working in new company for less than a month.
Stressful is the word that i will say
Regardless the company is MNC or SME, the stress is forever the same.

In this world, who to trust or who to rely on even you yourself will never know.

My working colleagues i got no comment but i could said that i prefer the previous colleagues.

Just a feeling that all.

Actually...pursuing your own dreams is good but sometime reality make us very far away from
your dream....it is something like if you dun have big head, never force urself to wear a big hat.

Now my mind is a bit shaky about where i am heading or supposed to be heading
which one is the correct path or by taking a wrong step what will happen to me?

All along, i always wanted a car of course i had to admit that car is a LIABILITY.

it just a WANTS...not NEEDS...but to think in a positive way...it make you move FORWARD and not BACKWARDS....becos you are STRIVING to get something that you desire...

Come to think of it...i used to think a lot of things negatively as in afraid of taking risks or always think about others before myself....is that a compliments? i dun think so cos i tend to hold on too many things that i wanted to do all becos of this stupid symbol....."$"

But i know the more i DRAG on the more far away to achieve my "car" cos things will just keep increasing and will never drop similiar like buying a housing property unless there is economic downturn.

Had been debating this issue with my precious bao bao. i know that he had his own way of thinking that make sense but i guess my patience level is really very limited...

Just want to say sorry that he always had to compromise with my "future" thinking that even i cannot foresee that this will definitely be the outcome.

But my concept is i just dun want to have too many "regret" in my journey of life....Sad to say...i dun think i am young anymore as a women age...of course the main issue is i do not want to leave the world with misery and so many undone tasks that i set for myself.

Regards
Kim

2010

2010-04-13T15:50:00.005+08:00

Out of sudden feel like writing blog post picture

currently, i am still writing blog but that blog i will keep it "hidden"

In life, there is alot of ups and downs. it depends on how we look at it.

it the matter of what happen in you, not what happen to you.

been resting for 1 month plus. looking for jobs but to no avail. guess luck not with me

Hamburger just bought me a Marc Jacob wallet thanx a lot..i know u dun have much $$ but neverthless, i appreciate that.

Last sunday, renovated my house again.

no pict cos i never take pict anyway

Busy doing volunteering work and looking for job.

Actually, this word 'Friends" can means many things.

Now this word marriage seems to appear in my world many times.

This just happen to be a thing that i desired BEFORE....

But now, i might wish that i dun have it.

In relationship, there is not right one or wrong one....

Maybe i am reaching a stage whereby i just wanna be alone and do my own stuffs.

Lonely sure will happen but it just part of ur life and depend on the duration.

A bit stressful that i cannot find job but guess things will go better ...

Last but not least, whatever pple said, it up to you whether do you believe or do you not....

No matter how strong i am....i am Only Human...so have a kind soul and stop hurting those pple tat YOu think that u can hurt them without being responsible...

Going out soon with my sisters...ciao

Regards
Kim

Hear me or LET ME DIE to the death journey

2009-06-24T00:10:00.007+08:00

Whatever i did is always wrong. if u all want me to change/ amend me. i will be the ee lin that u all wanted me to be..but i will forever not be happy if this is what u want i will fulfill ur wish...

but dun expect me to be happy or what. cos u are just driving me to the death path.

Sad to said that..my mindset is always negative and not positive becos no positive thingy ever happen to me as far as i can remember...

i'm driving myself to my own grave. i am trying really TRYING to be the pax that u all want me to be...

i am very very unhappy..did u all know that?

Everything i do almost i myself alone had to be held responsible.

I'm crying inside my heart almost everyday...every min..every sec..

i'm not strong enough to handle all these...

i'm ready to accept for u all to turn my world upside down..to accept that me is not me...to accept my fate..

this period is like the crucial time for me yet u all just....sob sobsob...

each alphabet i type...tears just rolled down...

at the same time, i am also ready to accept death signal is on my way maybe tomorrow?

anyway whatever i said u all will never listen cos u all just wanna change me and not LISTEN to me...of course i dun even want to said...cos i know u will NEVER LISTEN..so wat the point?

my advise to others..dun try to change the person if u really care/love that person..cos u are living in heaven when u SUCCEED in changing her/him..but he/she is LIVING IN HELL AND WHY THIS IS SO? COS U ARE THE ONE THAT DRAGGED HIM/HER TO HELL not by themselves..

Maybe This is the last time u all will hear me...

I'm ready now..and i just wanna said...

Hear me

Hear me

You gotta be out there
You gotta be somewhere
Wherever you are
I'm waiting
'Cause there are these nights when
I sing myself to sleep
And I'm hopin' my dreams
Bring you close to me
Are you listening?

Hear me
I'm cryin' out
I'm ready now
Turn my world upside down
Find me
I'm lost inside the crowd
It's getting loud
I need you to see
I'm screaming for you to please
Hear me
Hear me

Hear me
Can you hear me?
Hear me

I used to be scared of
Letting someone in
But it gets so lonely
Being on my own
No one to talk to
And no one to hold me
I'm not always strong
Oh, I need you here
Are you listening?

Hear me
I'm cryin' out
I'm ready now
Turn my world upside down
Find me
I'm lost inside the crowd
It's getting loud
I need you to see
I'm screaming for you to please
Hear me

I'm restless and wild
I fall, but I try
I need someone to understand
Can you hear me?
I'm lost in my thoughts
And baby I've fought
For all that I've got
Can you hear me?

Hear me
I'm cryin' out
I'm ready now
Turn my world upside down
Find me
I'm lost inside the crowd
It's getting loud
I need you to see
I'm screaming for you to please
Hear me
Hear me
Hear me
Hear me
Can you hear me?
Hear me
Hear me
Hear me
Can you hear me?
Oh, oh, oh, oh...
Hear me
Hear me
Hear me

My Journey

2009-06-14T23:31:00.001+08:00

Easy Kim Easy

I just gotten my last paper result yesterday i am so happy! I passed! Now proceeding to 3^rd year 2^nd stage soon after July. Still got 8 months to go hope to graduate soon so that i can do all the thingy that i wanna do.

Marriage. This word seems so far away from me and i dun even want to think abt it anymore cos i feel that i do not need it anymore...

Out of sudden, i just kinda want to lead a loner life. Friends...i seems to have friends...but i dun feel them sometimes why? Is there something wrong with me or vice versa. The final conclusion i can get is i cannot understand them and vice versa. Who is bad friends? Who is good friends? Only heaven know.

Work still sucks. But my family is the best of course. :p

As for baobao, we are still lovey-dovey but something is amiss? What is that?

I be busy doing my project Applied strategic management then another 1 more mth exam le. Time passed by in a fast pace. At the same time, going for my driving lesson w/o fail.

Here are some of Yuhong baby clef & my precious Nicole and nat photo. Be strong ok?

Yiyi will be here. :P

Saw Kelyn video...i’m touched really even though some photo of mine is considered “omg” thanx my cuz..u the best!

I had to agree Singaporeans only had “jiao yu” – education

but no “jiao yang” (upbringing of education)

It quite similar like got “quantity, no quality” it’s terrible. Sometime, i feel ashamed to be a Singaporean...really...

Regards

Kim

Must Say Happy Things

2009-06-09T01:10:00.002+08:00

Baobao said must write happy things in my blog 27th July is my TP test. So excited. I just bought a new laptop. My recommendation to everyone is FUJITSU. it the best! They are really at least i should said standardized in most of the things as in pricing, freebie etc. Even if u got IT fair it still wun changes much as compared you go to any other outlet On 6th June, Baobao bought me a new Canon camera ruby red i like it thanx a lot cos he hate me using that lumix..haha i know why.. Now that i realise i long long never post me and my bao bao photo here is just some. will upload more when i am free. Btw, i love flower over boys that Kun Jun Bio he's so handsome Regards Kim

法克U! Manual Car? Friends?

2009-05-07T22:52:00.008+08:00

Wow...long time never write my blog.

The bandung trip was fun becos i got kelyn, mavis, ah san as my companion with them. the whole trip was fruitful. Hearty talk is the best during the whole journey.

Sometime, i feel so fortunate that i got such lovely relative. but at certain time, i feel so unlucky in other way which indeed is inevitable and had to accept the reality.

As for friends, one stupid incident happen and realisation dawned on me that...friends are not forever...it doesn't mean tat u keep the bonding alive..it will be alive...you still need agreement.

Sometime i wonder is it really so difficult to do one occasion for a fews day for gathering?

Btw, my mum had resigned she so happy and i was the one who ask her to throw her letter cos her boss is damn...i just wanna tell u : 法克U. and don't let me see u.

Jayson ask me to go his company and work. the whole concept is good but it very far away from my homeplace. still deciding.

Been striving hard to learn driving but i had to admit my parking is lousy to the max. and the worst thing is my aunt all the car is AUTO car no MANUAL car at all...even yunhui...i should have taken Auto and not manual haiz..cos i feel that practice make perfect especially for me..i really need that. have found an alternative but is troubling and in an awkard situation. And someone will hate me or wat who know? But it the last option cos...NPTOSTIUR?

i am happy for myself cos i am going to be yiyi again! yeah! the more the merrier haha.

how i wish i had my own baby...how i wish...haha...but..haha...i know i dun deserve to have. .becos...*x*

Becos of my dog mocha, i quarrelled with bao bao until i said i will move out to stay with mocha. will not elaborate the whole thingy. Even though it had been solved. the problem still exist.

Actually..i got lotsa of things o said but i just cannot remember. will blog it once i remember

A lot of pict but no time to upload. just upload few first. that's all.

Regards

Kim

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2009-04-06T18:01:00.000+08:00

We've run out of words we've run out of time
We've run out of reasons, really why we together?
We both know it's over baby bottom line
It's best we don't even talk at all
Don't call me even if I should cross your mind
Hard enough, I don't need to hear your voice on my messages
Let's just call it quits it's probably better so if I'm not returning your calls it's cause

[Pre-Chorus:]
Cause I'm not coming back I'm closing the door
I used to be trippin' over missin' you but I'm not any more
I got the picture phone baby, your picture's gone
Couldn't stand to see your smile every time you dialed

[Chorus 1:]
Cause it's over girl you know it's over this time
So when you call I'm pressin 7 don't wanna hear your messages messages
I'm tryna erase you from my mind
Cause it's over I swear girl it's over this time
So don't keep callin' leavin messages don't wanna know where you been
Baby cause it's over
I still wake up every morning quarter to ten
Still eat my cereal right at the kitchen table
I can't even remember how long it's been
When your troubles stayed & occupied
Oh, ask about you whenever I come around
I do what I can not to put my business in the streets
Last thing I need is another episode keep conversations short and sweet because

[Pre-Chorus:]
Cause I'm not coming back I'm closing the door
I used to be trippin' over missin' you but I'm not any more
I got the picture phone baby, your picture's gone
Couldn't stand to see your smile every time you dialed

[Chorus 1:]
Cause it's over girl you know it's over this time
So when you call I'm pressin 7 don't wanna hear your messages messages
I'm tryna erase you from my mind
Cause it's over I swear girl it's over this time
So don't keep callin' leavin messages don't wanna know where you been
Baby cause it's over
You know that it's over when the burnin' & the yearnin inside your heart ain't there anymore
And you know that you're through when she don't do to you & move you like the way she moved you before
And you wanna pull her close, but your heart has froze you kiss her but her eyes don't close
Then she goes I love your heart forever and it hurts you but you know that it's better

[Chorus 2:]
Girl you know it's over
Girl you know it's over this time
So when you call I'm pressin 7 don't wanna hear your messages messages
I'm tryna erase you from my mind
Cause it's over I swear girl it's over this time
So don't keep callin' leavin messages don't wanna know where you been
Baby cause it's over
Cause it's over girl you know it's over this time
So when you call I'm pressin 7 don't wanna hear your messages messages
I'm tryna erase you from my mind
Cause it's over I swear girl it's over this time
So don't be callin' leavin messages don't wanna know where you been
Baby cause it's over

Du lan....

2009-04-01T19:49:00.005+08:00

I have a lot of frustration in me now...really want to dump everything and be a sleeping beauty and never wake up.
Everything is so Fucked up! finally i never put asterik (**) anymore i finally spell it out........
All i want to said is if u dun know me dun act as u know me or judge me by my apprearance..indeed i behave like very draggy...but does tat mean tat i always do things draggy? is this how u predict or so call judge me? Just because of how i walk?
so can i said that when a women walk with two leg very far apart from each other does that mean that she is a bitch? and if pple ask u why and u said: "oh based on how she walk lor u see...so leg apart...sure have a lot of sex experience so confirmed is a bitch!
then i guess singapore had a lot of bitches here...
i dun make up cos i like Simplicity IS THAT ALSO FUCKING WRONG?
i wear not in a good matching style....cos i not so rich as u can buy so many clothing...and for fucking god sake 1 LV for the past 26 yrs does not mean that i am fucking rich!
or i got no sense of style or wat...just mind ur own biz will do...
and Fake pple is everywhere it made me puke on how fake they are...
btw, i dun know who u are but if u are the culprit tat had been saying abt me or whatsoever...pls STOP INTERFERING OK!
It none of ur bloody business...even if u are my relative/ best friend/ sister/colleagues...i will still said the same old thing to you...
STOP Interfering...COS THIS IS MY LIFE MY STYLE NOT URS!!!!!
And by the way, all my best friend and sister they all along aware tat this ah lian friend of them had been this kind of pattern dun know how many years agoand if now then u start to interfere....then in the 1st place dun be my friend/ sister/colleagues!or are u being forced?
if yes, i said sorry to u then and u may leave now...
As for relative i got no choice but to endure it but still....i believe that i still had the right to control my own way of life and dun want to expect every step of my daily life need to be guided along until the day i died. or if indeed i need....i will reflect on myself cos stubborness of mine will not heed ur advice until i enlighten it myself.
As for my bf....becos of this fucking economic crisis. whatever u said to me is so DAMN Realisitic....until i dun even want to said anything to you anymore if u ever realise...u tell me ur reason...u always said u will support me whatever decision i make....but in the end...i did not seen anything significantly proven...
Hack care hack care u alwasy said hack care...ignore...treat it as a pig snoring or whatever la....the main thing is are u the one seeing their fucking face?sometime a pple becoms agitated is becos of the expression that the other parties show not the word he/she said...
and if u did realised...ur temper is getting not-so-good...u might not aware it..but i can feel it..dun ask me which part...the very-good u just gone le...and u might start asking /explaining/ telling/ informing...and wat u shown me is just the REALISTIC wording and nothing else..
Then wat i want to heard from u? are u asking me that?
my ans is NOTHING...Why? cos a leopard cannot change its spot...
u know ur own weakness and i know mine... sometime i keep asking u then why u still want me as ur gf? we are like opposite. i am more on the UNREALISTIC SIDE...
Being lazy, being tempermental, being hot-temper, being childish or naive that what u guys always like to said...and many others bad pts...few good pts....all these ADDED UP TO BE Kimberly Tian
Without all these, which kimberly tian are u going with? tell me then...
or are u waiting for the day that i will change? Nah...like u i guess u know wat i hate abt u and did u changed? Nope as in my pt of view.
and that is the reason why i suggest that idea which i dun know u agree or not agree....guess u are not afraid of losing me....
u treat me as like part of ur insurance plan...as long as every mth u paid....confirmed will be urs...nothing will happened. but u are wrong...
if ever 1 day i become ruthless..i can abandon everything including my parent.
Today i was kanna shoot again for dun know wat fuck...everyone is been doing this and yet i am the ONLY ONE affected...Kns! Knn!

while everyone is waiting for assignment.....i am going to pass up my assignment soon...to relieve myself.

Regards
Kim

Wonderful life surrounding me by my friends and relative

2009-03-27T00:17:00.003+08:00

Glad that 1st attempt already pass my FTT.

Now learning car hard hard. Pass fast fast. then get car car.

I am so proud of my friend. Yvonne Song and Darren.

The process that they went through was i really called "Journey to the path of life"

Their baby, Clef i guess too eagerly to see this world too eagerly but still, Welcome! i will be ur Godma.

Sometime, i been wondering i sleep, wake up work, study, sleep and again.

it a repetitive life indeed. Maybe 1 day i dun even recognise myself haha.

I somehow lost track of my friend esp Yunhui, i really cannot remember how she look now.

Live so near yet so far. it coming more and more true.

Another of my friend, Xiaoyu proudly present her son, the one cooling the "brother" is her son. haha. had to find 1 day to go her house.

For studies, losing track. Giving up mode. it not a good sign. i am slapping myself often now.

Happy birthday to michelle! 20 yr lor...got a "2" digit le.

The forever21 good had arrived. the material is v v v good quality.

Bangkok trip soon. but the stupid tiger airway cropped up. now still dun know the updated answer.

yesterday ah san told me abt Natalie and Da Jiu my uncle cute conversation.

Da jiu: Smiling with all the teeth flashing out.

Natalie: Observing the whole layout.

Natalie: Er..i think your teeth not very good le...

Da jiu: @_@

Ah san: Laughing at the back.

Recently, My finger swollen like hell. as u can see in the picture.

very numb till i go A&E at TTSH. btw, their location area sucks. i cannot find even though had all these colouring footprints.

i think tat all. cos i really forgot what is the things i wanna said

Ciao

Regards

Kim

Thoughts in my mind

2009-03-06T18:16:00.002+08:00

Just gotten back 2 result 1 passed 1 fail. another one on the way.

It a big blow for me to take it the moment i realise it.
But i appreciate whichever bao bao told me and do to me.
He just dun want me to go think abt it.
Cried until eye swollen resulting in MC 2 days for migraine and low BP.
Haven't been eating these fews days..but gradually, i will be fine.

Even though it hard for me to take it but still, i had to take it.
So i am going to said BYE BYE to my precious word 'honour' in my degree

I have been thinking a lot or should i said i had been thinking too much...
it just keep whirling around my mind no matter where i go...

Work wise i dun know where i am heading about.

Tomorrow is my FTT test so hope can passed and i can book for my practical test le

Somehow, being a human being is so weary...how i wish i can lag the whole month just 1 mth will do....i can't even anticipate this situation at all.

As for friends, Sometime i cannot differentiate who is good or bad...i really can't or should i said i dun want to differentiate...

April going bangkok with my cousins...tat what i am heading now.

Regards
Kim

Learning

2009-02-22T19:20:00.003+08:00

All these picture taken from kelyn thanx cuz!

Go to my aunt hse eat play chit chat with all my wonderful cuz. guess god is still good to me to give such a wonderful cousin and relative like them. oh btw. the bangkok trip must work! can't wait for tat day!

Saturday Just watch the 'He's just not that into you'
it a nice show. had a lot of thoughts and mind in this show.
But my precious ah san is sleeping halfway thru the show

Btw, now i am totally crazy over forever21 and gojane.
going to import their goods in.
created vpost and thanx mavis for teaching me how to use.
Happy birthday to you mavis n farley!
Btw cousin i have put all my stuff into the wishlist. so if u all want just key in my email address kim???????@hotmail.com and password u all know la hor. then i will import in together with all ur stuff le mine is around US$60 so as long above US$75 free shipping le.

Tmr i be meeting my poly mates shirley adel, mich too bad daph cannot make it and guess eve is busy flying here and there. Really miss them and hope tat i had more courage to talk to them more abt my inner part rather tat keep it inside.
the problem lie with me not them. At least i been trying very hard..but now i should try even harder and hope tat the past is being forgotten, forgiven but aware it will not be erased.

Miss my Gnai khakis Evie. how are u darling? meet up soon ya!

Just got back 1 of the results. passed but not tat good still got 2 more paper not yet back so scared. haiz.

So happy for my dearie anni she pass her driving yeah! hopefully i lst attempt pass le haha!

Think tat all! Ciao!

Regards

Kim

Update永遠在身邊Baby boy永遠永遠手牽手一步兩步一起走永遠永遠要記得我們要一起生活

2009-02-11T12:50:00.007+08:00

Updates which i can remember

Today MC. Menstrual pain like siao..

1. This Saturday Valentine day working and 2.30 going for my first practical lesson of driving.. excited

2. New yr go genting..a bit boring but with bao bao...still enjoyable.

3. FTT on 7th march Jia you!

4.Result coming back soon..scared of the truth

5.My Sienta 2nd hand car now only around $34k..hmm..tempting.

6. Now everyone recession here and there...but i been dragging myself to work everyday..where did my heart of interest go?

7.Need to study soon...March exam liao...

8.So far me n bao bao still fine...haha..wat is there to say abt Zhai nan/nu lifestyle? lol

9.Sorry for those pple tat i had no time to spend time with you all as busy schedule is running ahead daily.

10. Bao bao just bought a new hp for me..wanted to buy e66 nokia no stock so buy SE back sianz..the c902/5 the 8.1 megapixel one...hope it dun retired so fast only $18!

11.Should i study master degree? or psychology?

12.I love you baobao...'yong yuan zai yi qi' our marriage song by da zui ba

I think tat all ba...

Ciao!
Regards
Kim

Pass le..next stage -FTT..gonna be "zhai nu" My DREAM Car

2009-01-18T13:46:00.006+08:00

Yeah! 2nd attempt passed le. my BTT. dun wan to re-take the 3rd

Now going for my FTT..No available slot. shit! nvm go and get the PDL first...practice first.

Yesterday play mahjong with parent and bao bao..they are so funny esp my daddy..his "wa ka rei no" haha

My bao bao is smart and sensible in my pt of view...he analyse a lot of things to me..i wonder why last time..those cannot be done...

Recently, meet dave cos he offer to drive me home cos he's working.

Still the same ba..except slim down...

CNY going Genting AGAIN..No excitement at all haha...but guess with bao bao should be enjoyable...

Btw, my bao bao all along is "Zhai Nan" so he had successed in making me a "Zhai Nu" these few days watching Animation..."Yoroshi.."

It's very nice..finally understand those pple tat can keep watching and watching..addictive..haha...

My dog is sick..blind..ulcer in eye. haiz. so sad..now got skin disease. so worried i dun want him to leave me now..or forever..

Tat all.

Regards

Kim

22 yrs vs now

2009-01-04T00:07:00.007+08:00

My 23 yr old video...find it funny so upload it just wanna said paisey to those who are involved haha..
and now the happy video of my current life..love ya...

regards
kim

BE INDEPENDENT KIM

2009-01-02T01:11:00.001+08:00

Gals...be independent...everything reply on Urself and not others...

I just F**king wanna die...faster...cos life sucks to the max...

Love ya....

2008-12-21T18:30:00.007+08:00

Haha this song "怪胎" is for my baobao...i know it very tired/tedious loving me but u still give me ALL ur endless love...just wanna said...DON'T STOP LOVING ME ok?

And i love my mama n papa they are the world best!

Ok i got 100 over photos to upload and it wow! a lot with bao bao...

btw, my bao bao birthday coming soon..dun know what to buy for him..hmm..headache..

yesterday just went out with my sister...anyway it seems tat everyone had bf including me...

sometime i am just afraid tat their bf snatch away our friendship. it may happen to me or vice versa...hope tat it wun happen. Being sticky with bf does not mean not good..but too sticky and dependent on them...might be having negative effect cos they might not be the "right one"

u all know my relationship story so i guess u all know wat i mean ya...$$$ also seems to be obstracting us but...i cannot said anything cos $$$ obstract not only in friendship but in relationship also...but it just kanna feel sad that they choose to be with their bf instead of us when actually they are meeting their bfs almost everyday but i am only seeing them like twice for this mth december...it hurting but what can u do....

Sometime i just had that "So near yet so far" feeling.

Anyway, it just my own pt of views...Last but not least...DON'T STOP TREASURING OUR FRIENDSHIP COS IT MEANT A LOT TO ME AND HOPEFULLY TO U ALL TOO...

Main issue is PHOTOS! Ciao! *Mixture of new and old photos *perm hair

Regards

kim

Something is wrong with me...Merry xmas & Hapi New year

2008-12-14T23:15:00.006+08:00

Guess long time never write my blog cos i am damn damn lazy.....

Been very busy with work, studies, friends and colleagues....
Now every 2,5,6 study or sometime, 2,4,5,6 i hate saturday wah kao..cannot sleep late

And to all my friends....Guess sooner or later i will have phobia in eating Japanese food...just out of sudden i had the "sickening" feeling

Recently, i realised that after going steady with bao bao...i lost the "hearty talk" of that friend i had a yr ago...i miss that feeling cos none of the others could actually "stimulate" or "activate" me to talk out my inner word...and it seems that he is getting further away frm me...

Last but not least...happy birthday to Ah san, my lovely cousin.... and the rest...I realised that i seldom talk now...i only talk when necessary...is it good or bad i also dun know..i just realise a lot of question "Why u so quiet" had been popping out to me...Last time, i use to said a lot of crap but now seldom or no more..just serious talk..it just ain't me...so weird...in my own view

One recent night, i quarrel with my beloved mum...it hurt so bad tat i went to the balcony, open the window wide and look down below...feel that life is so meaningless...Heard frm qin that..human being tends to regret when they went through halfway..as in like e.g 18th storey..then mid end at 9th storey he/she regret but too late...u are going to died soon...lol

There is a lot of things that i want to do...but it seems that i cannot fulfill it at the timing tat i set for myself...like getting my licence...buy a car, a house, go japan...etc.

I just need to struggle for another 1 more year i will graduate le yeah! to be exact 14mth to go...feb 2010 then graduate..time flies so fast..reaching 3rd stage le..but hope the 2nd stage paper can go through

I trust people too easily, tat y i always get hurt so easily...but it the stupidity that wun leave me what can i do....unless i had some miracle to re-start all my character.

Had just attended shufeng wedding...she look beautiful...but a pity that her hubby not very sporty in some ways...

Even after exam, bao bao is still busy studying studying and studying...i also dun know why he cannot rest just for a day or wat but we sama sama la
For me, i had been working, working and working..like now sunday i am working while writing this blog and outside is raining heavily so at the moment no clients coming in.

Heard from my mum tat my uncle got throat cancer...left few mths to live...so be prepared abt it...now he at SGH...cannot eat anything at all..just awaiting for the day to end that all..
Out of sudden, i miss my grandpa and grandma....wonder if now they are still alive...i will definitely do wat i supposed to do/be as a granddaughter

I feel that Human philosophy is "Live without regret"

Christmas had a lot of activity but not sure am i going for all as i am working on weekend and study and other stuff..
But next week, hope tat i be able to see daphne, adeline, michelle, irwan and others...cos i really long time never see them...miss them..even though that 3 yrs..together there is a lots of up and down..to me, it not too long nor short..but it memorable...as we went through happy times & bad times...too bad eve is not in singapore....

Next weekend after work, i be meeting my sister they all for a early celebration of christmas...even though someone will be envy, someone will comment "not sian meh? u only got these bunch of friends ah? everytime the same name"
But i guess they are just jealous cos they dun have this bonding friendship that i had....right sister? cos we are "RICH"

I guess my mum can be a actress...this is an incident happen in MRT.
(We board the MRT, Mum finally found a seat, while sitting, an old lady beside mum started to shift her body totally to the left like the seat almost half of the seat is not occupied. and my mum of course is very very angry and started staring at her up-down, up-down....
As for me i was standing in front of my mum...
Then i saw my mum hand had some red patches something like itchiness kind...and i ask(In chinese conversation)

Me: Mummy, Why ur hand got rashes?
Mum: Haiz.....Got AIDS it like that one lah...
Me: @_@
Old lady: Moving fastly to another place and seat....
Mum: @_v (Blinked her eye cos she win le!)
I laughed like mad...cos my mum said it too naturally as if she really have hahahaaha.....tat my mum

And my seven flowers, two flower are having mini flowers soon..so happy for them..it a male flowers....can't wait for it...i want to be their "God flower mum" haha

Last but not Least Wish everyone a Merry christmas and Happy new year....

Above pict is all abt shufeng weddings n the clubbing night......As for the rest....next time perhaps..i am just damn lazy -x-

Regards
Kim

Thoughts and feelings....

2008-12-03T23:39:00.003+08:00

Well, these few days is not so good for me...

All i want to say is, i realise the inner side of "them" and human being can be extreme different when situation occured.

And i realised that..i keep everything to myself that i feel so "suffocated" sometime..even bao bao also dun know anything abt me...until forcefully asked then i will tell him only.

There is a lots of things i wanna said but it just went blank upon typing.

Just wanna said sorry to my sisters was supposed to meet them today but i was on MC due to some minor illness and a sympton called "too long i dun remember" something like over stress and tense-up. The reason i take MC is lame..but everyone just wan to cover their own backside which is common.

But Luckily, this sat i meeting u all for wedding dinner and sunday also.......

The only thing i am unhappy is mom as she said something and my feel was "wtf"

I just shoot her it not a matter of whether i give in, it is a matter of right or wrong...but in their own pt, they only want to get things back together..tat's all they care. It something like u play mahjong, u short of 1 player..u dun like this person but as long as he/she can cover can le...

Maybe in career, we had not choice but to behave in this manner.

Kinship is hard to come by, indeed it is...but whether it is worthwhile...maybe everyone should ask this question to urself. Cos my tears just rolled down upon reading some blog...haha Crybaby? if u did said, F**k off~~

In order to discontinue the "war" and avoid adding more "salt" i will not elaborate anymore

Last but not least, i love u all..but i will keep it in my hearts and look after u all from watever places i am...

Regards
Kim

I love u all...i becoming better...i be strong

2008-11-22T17:35:00.006+08:00

Hi long time never write my blog I had been waiting for my pictures from other people but still in vain.

In this realistic life, I realized human being is always “selling fish” maybe I am just 1 of them but not in a oblivious way or it just tat I never really really realized it…ya referring to some of my classmates

I just had my Marketing comm. Paper and now I can only say I had no confidence at all as in the midst of writing, I gradually felt that I am on the “out-of-point” track

Just ended my “Last night of clubbing with my sisters” that day is the last day I am going clubbing and I am grateful for them to compromise the date with me and of course, not to make me drunk otherwise, this will be a wasted trip again like the previous time. However, I have learnt a lesson
Never use people Camera to take photo…I been like waiting for decade for that man and now he send it to my precious daughter and same thingy..i dun understand why cannot send by email while I can..but anyway, I sort of GIVE UP on the awaiting of the photo and just wanna said sorry to my other sisters cos I dun have it not I dun want to load it…I can only blame myself not to bring my own camera.

I am so happy that my sisterly bing get good result cos we studying same school ma.. MDIS
Great work sister.

As for the rest, I always love them and somehow someone is in love with someone which I do not know is it correct or right as the saying goes…love is blind and I had no say.

And the rest is head-over-heels over their loved one and some is awaiting for their true love.
But No matter what, we will never be apart no matter where we are.

Soon, I be attending my friends wedding…nowadays everyone around me is surrounded with blissful love and happiness…even though economic is so bad.

However sometime, when a human being lose itself just becos of $$...i dun think it worthwhile. I feel so sorry for my baobao cos he is so struggling in the political and dramatic company of his and I am suffocating with mine too.

I just want to tell them “Dun go too far cos everyone had their limits” they will do anything to fight back even though its what u all call “stupidity”

Actually…having a car means that you had the right to be arrogant? The right to be proud and higher class than anyone else? I dun think so…My main purpose of having a car is to provide convenience for my mum which is the main issue and subsequently for my niece and of course not to be dependent on other “guy friend” car as I had the uneasy feeling sometime unless it my bf if not, I rather use my own $ to hail a cab

Today is Natalie Chew birthday! Haha..thursday after exam went to meet her with kelyn…she was so adorable…and Nicole too..and I always like Natalie chew to call my Chinese name “yi~~ling” her way of calling had specific high and low tone. But she always call me kel~~lyn which is a bit infuriating sometime.

Nicole cos I had a small mirror on my hp strap there like anna sui that kinda. And I guess she love herself too much tat she keep posing non-stop and I laugh like mad.
My baobao going to have exam soon also and of course me too but mine will be over by next week so good luck baobao..

As for my job, I just feel that it reached my peak and it time for me to pass down to another person by the end of Mar’09.

Recently, just realized that Dave got a new gf...but the most stunning news in my pt of view is he still remember vividly everything abt me and him in the past which shocked me a little cos based on his character, he was supposed or meant to forgotten abt it.

As for Jayson, he also had new gf le which to me he was fast and quick. And somehow it make me know more abt his deeper side of him which make me feel that I make the correct choice cos being with him can make your imagination run wild every min of your day. That is the conclusion I get. As for wat kind of person he is..as time goes by…judging a person based on a failed relationship is unfair to him or me…so it up for you all to judge about it and my past behaviour was ultimately “childish’ or naïve” haha finally I admitted…

I saw one of my friend ex bf blog remark abt my sister. Initally, I was so pissed off while reading it and feel like tagging him with regards the flaws towards my sister. But I hesitate thinking that I had not been through the stage with him so i do not have much right to say abt him. And Girls are always sentimental ya..always…that is what makes a women..

Everyone said that my mum is fierce, unreasonable, command people or etc..but in her inner side, she was always nice and so kind-hearted to everyone she think they deserve the positive treatment from her. But was not always appreciated. Now my main target is to get my degree as my first goal is to get credit card for my mummy and I had achieved it…I am proud of myself and my mum was proud of me too.. secondly my degree cert and take photo with my mum. Thirdly get a car so that I can drive her around. Lastly, travel around the world with her if I had the capital.

Last time, I always think that love is the most impt in my life. But now not anymore, just dependent on baobao..overall I am still a women…

Because of someone, I am cautious toward people.
Baobao, we can go through anything as long as it still within my BORDERLINE.

Situation is changing every min and sec…the only way is to adapt with it and with you, I believe can adapt to it and thank you for coming into my life from the day we knew each other
When I know you, I was only Secondary 2. Yrs pass so fast..it been 11 yrs and counting on…
U are always so patience and tolerant toward me…I guess I just need to “appreciate you MORE” now still not enough..

With regards to those words I said to you..cos I just care abt the current situation and not the future..cos nobody will know the future..and I see the “10 promises to my dog” got some impact too last but not least I LOVE YOU..

Some words to my lovely people

Lynn: Thanx for giving me 2 beautiful nieces that brighten my life every min sec of my day…this is the best gift u had given to each and everyone of us. Nevertheless..your hard work and effort. 10q

Kelyn: No matter what, just remember…we be there for you..cos we love u more than anyone else…and thank you for being part of my life and as a cousin to me..share your sorrow, happiness with me..nothing can ever buy it. and ya the chad is more handsome than the zac..brainwash lihong haha.

Mavis: You are getting slimmer..is Farley ill-treating you? But no matter what..be urself that the impt issue…bimbo..haha u hate that but I Luv u

Claudia: Your birthday is coming...and meet up soon again..miss ur craps and anything abt you..

Michelle: As blur as ever but I still love you la…

Shirley, jayne, yufei, emmy, xiuwen, yuhong : thanx for being my friends cum colleagues cum the 7 sister in ur group…thanx for tolerating my uncontrollable temper…I appreciated with everything spend with you all

And other friends..which I seldom contact but I still remember u all..thanx u..for coming into my life before or even now…thank u…

As if I going to somewhere else..haha last words..hhaha…-_-

Will upload some old pict/ new pict and i got too many pic no time to upload it sorri...

Regards
Kim

Beause of YOU...i'm giving up my life

2008-11-08T01:47:00.007+08:00

I guess i will never get what i want...
My heart is torn into pieces..
Feel so useless, feel so unworthy..
WHY? WHY? WHY do you have to do this to me?

I treasure / respect you so much yet u always disappointed me again and again...
YOU Just wun change will ya?
YOU think ur life too good le isit?

There's a lotsa of things in my mind but i dun wish to said..cos no point saying it out and wun gain anything but sympathy? pity? Nah..i dun need all this...

The TEARS I shedded for you is countless..really countless...i thought u will change for the better..but but..sob sob...can u feel my heart aching each time i realise it? can u?

Almost giving up on everything i am having..really..even my life...everything i do..u dun seem to see it..
i am so disappointed in YOU

Regards
Kim

P.S pict will upload next blog sorri abt it.

I will not make the same mistakes that you did

I will not let myself

Cause my heart so much misery

I will not break the way you did,

You fell so hard

I've learned the hard way

To never let it get that far

Because of YOU

I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of YOU..I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of YOU

I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me

Because of YOU I am afraid ...I lose my way

You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
FOR THE SAME DAMN THING!

Because of youI never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of youI learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of youI try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of youI don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ASHAMD OF MY LIFE BECAUSE IT'S EMPTY!
Because of youI am afraid
BECAUSE OF YOU
BECAUSE OF YOU

I'm Yours...

2008-10-21T23:46:00.010+08:00

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it

I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted

I fell right through the cracks

Now I'm trying to get back

Before the cool done run out

I'll be giving it my bestest

And nothing's gonna to stop me but divine intervention

I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

But I won't hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me

Open up your plans and damn you're free

Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love

Listen to the music of the moment, maybe sing with me

All - ah peaceful melody

And it's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved

So I won't hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait I'm sure

There's no need to complicate

Our time is short

This is our fate,

I'm yours

Scooch on closer dear

And I will nibble your ear

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror

And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer

But my breath fogged up the glassAnd so I drew a new face and laughed

I guess what I'm be saying is there ain't no better reason

To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons

It's what we aim to do

Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait I'm sure

There's no need to complicate

Our time is short

This is our fate, I'm yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me

Open up your plans and damn you're free

Look into your heart and you'll find that the sky is yours
Please don't, please don't, please don't

There's no need to complicate

Cause our time is short

This is out fate, I'm yours

Stressful...Temptation...

2008-10-21T23:46:00.008+08:00

I was working while writing this blog…Cont's

Wednesday - 22th Oct

Happy birthday Brandon Ngui! btw today module was so stressful..marketing communication 20 credit module. too stressful until i cannot breathe haiz...dun know what to do...the lecturer no TIP totally no tips given wah biang...btw i feel like taking psychology in Degree damn ex $25.7k!! and the most pissed off is the driving BT until Mar'09 FULLY BOOKED! can u believe that? can someone just kindly leave 1 pathetic space for me for my future?

Sunday- 19th Oct

Go and attend Bao bao V V V V good brother wedding dinner…and sit with his bunch of friends…then feel like getting “married” haha only feel la..not action to be taken..then saw his secondary gal-friends..all look not bad…then I ask him why that time never chase them..then he said “Not my cup of tea..” I guess it the opposite way ba…then on our way home…had a minor quarrel due to certain problem la. But in the end he coaxed me back then ok already lor…then he told me about all his secondary story and all the happening..etc…which make me realize tat wow! Got so many people like him before when he was SLIM..But now only me la! Haha..anyway he’s MINE!

Saturday- 18th Oct

This is the big day of kelyn and brandon..so sad not even 1 photo taken with them cos I gotta work aftertat…kelyn must make up ok? Haha…and bao bao played mahjong with them lose a bit la…but overall..so happy the cake nice..and saw the 2 little cutie..wah more and more naughtier the Natalie..but Nicole so adorable..keep hi5 with me haha…I love them so muchie!!Friday- 17th OctGo sch as usual..New module call product innovation..seemed a bit bored..hope the further lesson will be more interesting ba..

Wednesday- 15th Oct

Meet up with my sister they all..Anni, bing, yan, ting, qin, ruoying and feng not free guess prepared for her wedding ba..then later part, hamburger and anni bf come along…before that…Anni told me she saw Dave @ Geylang with a gal holding hand or wat…so call at the red district there..i was like “Oh isit? Then as usual ask those girly question and Ruoying give an unusual ans that make me burst out laughing…guess it her style as usual ba…

This month I am kinda broke…haha..so whoever want to ask me out kindly ask on November…btw..8th Of Nov sister dun forget ah!

Will upload a lot of me and hamburger photo cos we are so loving haha. dun puke..and 1 photo of me and jayson becos I look damn sweet and nice in this pict 2 weeks ago just look at me will do thanx!

That all

Regards

Kim

Xin Fu de nu ren...我会好好过..i am sorry..

2008-10-11T15:47:00.005+08:00

Sometimes Human being are just so emo...

They just want to make their life complicated...

Ya..refering to myself.

But sometime complicated life makes you wake up and realise a lot of things around you.

But this post is just for me to remind myself that no matter what i do...think for him...

Even if one day i really really make a stupid wrong step, i knew i will regret not him..cos it my loss not his...

The moment i received his e-mail, tat moment..i cried like mad...just wondering am i really dreaming to have such a good man to step in my life is he really mine?

Maybe i meet too many bad guys...in the past that i cannot believe this is happening to me..oh gosh!

I am not saying they are really very bad but as compared to him, they are bad...

A man who is willing:
to make u happy even though he is not happy
to let u go out even though he is not happy
to cook for u even when he is damn tired
to listen to ur sorrow even when is very weary
to help you take this, take tat, do whatever u said as long as it is under your command.
to lighten your load whenever he can
to make you laugh, he can make a fool of himself
to make your family member each and everyone happy as long as i am happy...

As a matter of fact, he treat my cousin, grandma, parent better than i treat them..i really had to admit that...they also know it..cos he use his heart to do all this, not just to praise them.

he is the one who always update me my cousin blog like what happen to them and etc.

I know everyone must be hating me or laughing at me, teasing at me for being f**king stupid..if ever ever i let this man outta my life...

But the main things is now..i cannot face him for too long cos there is a guilt inside my heart.

i feel like stabbing myself to be frank...

guilt as in..not worthy of him, he can find a women that really love him wholeheartedly not to be shaken so easily.

tat y i said i myself make my f**king life so complicated when actually it can be so simple.

Yesterday we go IMM, he make my day so happy when my job is f**king like shit.

i just want to tell you...

I am SORRY...even though i said it alot of times...
I know i am not a good girl, a 100% faithful girl...
I know u been giving it to me for dun know 9876554433 times...
I never expected that u are so so important to me...i always thought...cos D had great impact on me...J make my days joyful w/o D...
but u are not D..Not J..Just V...just urself...
When i write this blog, my tears just keep rolling down...because i am just a f**king emo girl..always love to remember the past..no matter how bad/good it is..how stupid i am...

this blog is meant for him to see..i dun need anyone to comment abt my character or what..cos this blog is mainly post it for myself to remind my stupidity and for him...

whoever see just see...ok...

End
Regards
kim

P.S Thanx for the breakfast..this song is for u..as long as i love u...
i will always 只牵你的手....

我的车上会有
你的特别座
我的肩膀是你
专属的枕头
你说西或往东
听你的没错
我家里所有是你的杰作
虽然你常念很久
还把过去拿来说
那是因为你爱找　我懂
有时你会气很久狠心不跟我联络
也是因为你爱我　我懂
闪为你我愿意说　Oh Babe　
只牵你的手
就算世界有尽头　Oh Babe　
只牵你的手别怕诱惑邢朦多
把我放在我心中　牵着我的手
我的车上会有
你的特别座
我的肩膀是你专属的枕头
你说西或往东听你的没错
我家里所有是你的杰作
虽然你常念很久
还把过去拿来说那是因为你爱找　我懂
有时你会气很久狠心不跟我联络
也是因为你爱我　我懂
闪为你我愿意说　Oh Babe　
只牵你的手就算世界有尽头　Oh Babe　
只牵你的手别怕诱惑邢朦多　
把我放在我心中　牵着我的手
我给的够不够你慢慢感受
因为你就是承诺
闪为你我愿意说　Oh Babe　
只牵你的手就算世界有尽头　Oh Babe　
只牵你的手别怕诱惑邢朦多　
把我放在我心中　牵着我的手

Happy! Pass my exam! 1st LV bag!

2008-09-29T23:07:00.006+08:00

Haha Unbelievable for the first time of my 26 yrs life, i bought my first LV bag that cost me $13++! love the bag at first sight.

Bao bao also bought an ipod for me. thanx a lots!

No matter what i am proud of you! Dun feel that way again...

And i bought a very cutie t-shirt which is : Respect your mother...lol

The most happiest thing is I pass all my exam paper!

Supp paper also passed le better than the actual paper scoring

then 2nd stage one just got it only! Yeah! Hip Hip Hooray for myself!
Too overjoyed !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and just meet my lecturer to check my assignment. He said " Everything ok" at least "B" or "A" Haha i want "A" cos this personal management analysis no exam paper... 100% project based...

Going to see my cousin tmr kenneth botak haha..kelyn mavis they all.. and after that watch movie yeah!

Haha i can only remember all this. sorry if i missed out the other pictures...

Nite...
Regards
Kim

Happiness? Rich vs Poor

2008-09-18T00:20:00.004+08:00

Guess my blog is a bit deadly, lazy to blog. lol

Have upload some pic all taken frm kelyn cos use her camera to take and 1 pathetic photo frm michelle which is LONG LONG AGO. haiz. that's my cousin.

Cos Mr handsome kenneth go army so celebrate for him.

Even though tat day they got a lot of comment abt my clothes doesn't match here nor there,

arrgggghhhh...but they still love me like i do!

Oh natalie and nicole is so cute. but at the same time, a lousy yiyi sobsob.

Recently, just went out with ting n yan.

been discussing abt how come other so financially good but mostly among our side still so kinda

POOR.

Well, i guess if i did not further studies, i actually had $10k now haha. but somehow, our sisterly bonding is not what money can buy hor...this is more impt. but of cos, w/o money also cannot la.

Talking abt my studies, i feel that i am lagging too much, & somehow certain issue happening make me feel tat i am so stupid damn stupid. feel that i do not had the quality at all.

Had not taken the result yet, so scared tat i flunked all. worried. haiz..

Now economic not good so everyone just keep ur pocket tight

A conversation that make me feel so warm-hearted

Me: I feel so stupid

B: Nope

Me: i am really stupid.

B: No u are smart!

Me: Then can u elaborate why i am smart?

B: U know why, U are smart cos u CHOSEN ME AND NOT THEM!

Me: -v-

Guess u all now who it is,

Some pple may think tat happiness is having a lot of $$ or other means.

But certain people just want it to be

SIMPLE for happiness.

Or balanced in all.

Tired le.

Nite

Regards

Kim

So Tired of being a human being

2008-09-11T00:34:00.002+08:00

I am really tired
I had no patience in everything I do
I feel so envy of other
I feel so pathetic about myself
I hate myself for loving you
Why is my life like that?€
Why must I make myself so tired?
Working, studying, controlling my temper, emotion,
Minding my language, being teased by people
When you cannot expect from the best, expect for the good,
Without both, then expect the worst
I just feel so being controlled by whatever things I do.
As if everything is being planned by others not by my own wishes
I just cut my hair, outcome turns out not bad
But the more I see myself, the more I hate myself
Why is this so?
Finally, I had to admit my relationship is plunging down,
Cos it reaches my limit where I dun wish to control anymore.
By all means, write ur thoughts cos that’s what u always do…
If u did see the differences, I don’t write wat happening around me nowadays
Regardless of u, me or others
Cos this blog is not just solely mine, but also for u to type wat u wanna say.
I feel so restricted had to type CAREFULLY WAT I WANNA WRITE
it’s similar to my those job client, like when we just said 1 fucking wrong word for e.g
shit? Fuck? Haha…
the complain letter is like waterfall non-stop…
it so like u…once u had my “ba ping” u will seize the chance to say it all out.
Maybe I am like that too…maybe I did not realise that
Conclusion:
I might had expect too much from u.
Marriage…I dun see the roads that is leading to us anymore
The things u said…fen dan he zuo…...keep circulating in my mind.
And make me GIVE UP the mindset of marriage tat discontinue this relationship wun do not differ anything.
On the other hand, now it is mum who keep talking abt this issue which do not trigger me to prompt more issue abt it. I just ended it with..”study first”
I do not wish to be dependent on you anymore. I need to be stronger and more hardworking
All I can said is
MY LAZINESS KILLS ME
MY EMOTION KILLS ME
EVERYTHING THAT IS WITHIN MY BODY, MIND KILLS ME TO THE MAX.

Got picts but sorri no mood to upload and pointless at this stage

All I want is to be happy…why is it so damn fucking Hard????????????????

Regards
Kim

Happy birthday cousin...dun ask too much

2008-09-01T14:09:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday to ah ken on 31st Aug! too bad kelyn wanna sleep

Yesterday went to celebrate kenneth birthday @ raja inn @ tiong bahru

Got a lot of things to write but now my mind blank

when i remember then i write .

Chao!
Regards
kim

生气不如争气...wo de peng you shi???

2008-08-27T23:28:00.007+08:00

Hi everyone i am BACK! See the pict urself! The rest still with my friends.

This Hongkong trip...make me realised a lot of things...

which i dun even know how to describe it.so i choose not to say

But i am very happy to see Hong hong so happily really like tai tai

and i saw the olympic there wow! fantastic! i saw liu qing yun with his wife also

The most happiest things i saw my favourite!

HEROIC RENDEZEVOUS!!!!!!!!!! YEAH!

Bad thing is we had meet with typhoon No.10 bad experience. injured my hand. conclusion: do not bring cheap umbrella.

Thanx kelyn I AM BACK! i miss u all! so sorry i never bought anything cos wasted 1 day n totally no time to buy things.

Recently, been reading a book on human philosophy. then i realised friends got a lot of kind and what woman is supposed to know. overall women should not be ANGRY, But to STRIVE.

See when i free i will put it in my blog 1 by 1 the story but a bit lazy cos damn LONG...

Abt friend

一个普通朋友从未看过你哭泣。

一个真正朋友有双肩让你泪水湿尽

一个普通朋友不知道你父母的姓氏

一个真正朋友有它们的电话在通讯簿上

一个普通朋友期望你永远在他身边陪他

一个真正朋友期望他能永远陪在你身旁！

-shorter version

Abt women

An elderly couple order a set meal

a burger, fries and drink

the husband make everything into half

then those youngster cannot stand it and offered to buy a set for them instead of sharing

but the husband rejected by saying they get used to it to share

while the husband is eating, the wife just keep drinking the coke

the youngster cannot stand it and ask again but still rejected by the husband and the wife by shaking his head

finally, 3rd attempt they ask but still being rejected. but then, the youngster cannot stand it and ask the wife "since u are sharing, why aren't you eating the half share it is in the table and keep drinking water?

The wife replied: " I am waiting for the Fake teeth we shared 1 set"

我在等假牙我们共用一副

I laughed upon seeing this sentence.

But the morale is :

婚姻就是两个人共同承担风险

共同分享成果。分享让我们不觉得孤单，

分享让痛苦是原来的一半

快乐却是两倍。与你的爱人分享吧！

因为他是与你共度一生的人。

For me...i am still waiting, finding the one that can stay with me forever...

Regards

kim

I Had Enough

2008-08-19T01:36:00.004+08:00

Maybe i wun be giving u any more chances

cos it already more that what i am supposed to give it to u

Frankly speaking, i am not happy...not happy at all...

You are too focused on urself
and ur stuff...TAT WAT I THINK K! Not saying u selfish

No time for each other...
and i dun even feel tat we are together
tat the funny part

When your exam is over, when i'm back frm hongkong then we settled all this
ONCE AND FOR ALL

i dun wish to drag it anymore

cos I HAD ENOUGH

Hongkong here i come

btw thanx kelyn for the birthday pic she put in her blog i love it..sorri been busy with many stuff finally can view ur blog

Michelle n mavis WHERE is my pict of me n ken @ mama hse? upload it lei!

i thank everyone who wish me happy birthday

Never expected tat daphne n michelle still remember very touched

and 1 more person every yr without fail he will sms me..but normally in the morning so initally i thought he forgotten until almost noon time i saw his msg. thanx a lot Dave Peh..we might not end up what we supposed to be...but at least in our heart. we know where we stand :P

Unexpectedly, Lynn was the 1st one to msg me..thanx ah cousin!

lastly, thanx to my other friend...all my sister.. 7 flower...felicia...ba po thanx for the cake! and the rest

Regards
kim

A meaningless birthday

2008-08-13T22:25:00.003+08:00

Another 1 hr more is my birthday

but this yr seem so dull..i dun know why

Now having 肠胃炎 it torturing me..

n i just feel like dying..eally

Everything tat i do i said i want seems so meaningless

dun know why

and i dun even know being with him isit being "used to it" or other reason

this yr birthday is the worst of the worst

my cousins...i dun think there is any methods that can salvage the situation...

keep having the "fake" feeling instead of "true" feeling....

what the fucking wrong with human beings!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My mum...so naggy..baobao..unnice word keep popping out...maybe exam ba..but sometime i just wish i can cut my ear off to stop hearing anything...

Doing so many thing for other doesn't mean pple will appreciated it...

Happy pathetic birthday to urself kim...

我真的好累
你要的我永远都学不会

Happy birthday to all the August babies...

2008-08-10T00:42:00.007+08:00

Count down another 4 more days is my birthday

yesterday is my daddy birthday

i just bought a packet of ba gua for him cos that is his favourite brand called Jing ping xiang...

Nowadays i dun wish to said much abt my thought n feeling in my blog...cos i just feel tat way...

unless it is something tat i really wish to share with everyone...

Just went clubbing with my sister last saturday..3rd of aug..

they ordered "lamborgini" for me n worst still 1-for-1

n indeed...i was dead drunk and vomit straight outsider old bar...

conclusion: i never danced or enjoy at all but vomit non-stop

But overall, thanx sisters...thanx for making my day n celebrate with me...and i will upload the rest of the pict next time cos i upload those group pict first..

As for Yunhui, she is always so busy until i dun know wat to say...

then the rest...maybe they will wonder why i never ask them or wat

some is never reply..whilst some is i dun want to face the midst of embrassment or watever...

those who know me get wat i mean...

Tmr all my lovely cousin is going to celebrate my birthday so happy...so excited to see them in another 12 more hrs...

As for bao bao...just wanna said thanx for everything...trying to be the best gf or wife u want me to be..but if i cannot succeed..forgive me then...cos that is me...i am not perfect in all...

today got working half day..then after tat went to ernest house..my 2 adorable niece make me laugh non-stop...especially natalie...

she imagine herself eating chilli taking a ketchup bottle and a spoon and she give me those creepy look and ask me " Yi yi..do you want to eat chilli? hehehe...

and nicole..natalie..throw a toy look-alike bone..n natalie said doggy doggy...n nicole go n bite it and act like a dog..oh gosh! she dun have her stand...

i really thanx my cousin for making the cake or brownies or muffins it delicious...

and also lynn...for giving me such 2 lovely niece....appreciated.

Got a lot of things to said but just can't write it out...haiz..

Regards

kim

What Hurts the most is..........

2008-08-02T00:20:00.004+08:00

Just write whatever i remember
1) Bought a PSP for bao bao give him a surprise he so happy...
2) My birthday is coming but i got no time to celebrate.
3) Going out with my sisters tmr yeah!
4) 1 yr older again...sian...
5) Going Malacca another 2 weeks sian..company event. Sigh
6) Going hongkong to see yuhong yeah! 22nd Aug!
7) Father’s birthday coming soon....
8) Exam over le no break at all wah kao next week sch re-open liao!
8) I need more $$$$$...钱不够用啊!!!

As a cousin, i should said i am not a really dedicated or qualified cousin cos
As a matter of fact, i really do not know what they are thinking most of the time and i always know their stuff through their blog with a big question mark in my head

I did ask, did try, did attempt, did tried to enter their world, their view, but guess i will never succeed.

Bao bao always said “How come u dun know a damn thing abt ur cousin but ur friends?”
The only answer i can say is “it a 2 way communication thing...me n my friend had that bonding...but my cousin...sometime it just 1-way issue.

I love them all...but i can’t enter their world. Not that i never tried..but hard to enter it..cos Everyone had different pt of view, mindset. I cannot change their view nor my view.

It’s hurting...we are so close yet so far...they might not even see the effort on how we tried to enter their world. But at least hope they can feel it that we did really tried...

Indeed, i am afraid of losing the bond that we had built up for so long...So afraid if i ask A out, should i ask B out? Will there be any conflicts?
And if i ask A not B or vice versa, will they had the mindset tat i do not care either 1 side of them?

Stuck in the middle is so difficult. Decision had to be made wisely.

My birthday is coming...want to have a gathering but...
i am in a dilemma i dun know how to start off can someone enlighten me?

Regards
Kim

因为我的不完美使你完美-你没想像中爱我

2008-07-26T15:47:00.007+08:00

Yesterday saw the last episode of “Perfect cut”
Realised that without imperfection, there wun be perfection.
Yesterday u said the wrong word.
It not the issue of u saying the wrong word
It just make me realise u did not realise ur initial mistake.
U think everything can be solved by saying a word “SORRY”
But sad to said that not everytime worked.
I cried because u mind someone dearest to me “imperfection” when all along
It there… the way she said to me…it hurt me…can u know the feeling of
A WOMEN ACCEPTING HER IMPERFECTION? N IT BECOS OF ME DO U KNOW TAT!!!
Episode conclusion
Song yi fei: by making breast enhancement will not keep ur loved one with u if his heart is no longer there, but for her case, he a gay…for other reason, gals dun be foolish..being urself is the most impt.

Chen yi xuan: Does look really matter so much? When u love someone or so call ur idol…hearing their bad pt will u still support them? Afterall, they are also Human right?

Pan ling ling:Using money to cover up ur daughter pleasure is not going to work. Wat they want is the attention n love. Read ur child blog if u know it then.

Sky n xiaoli:Incompatible couple is everywhere. And I just wanna said it BECOS OF UR OTHER PARTNER IMPERFECTION THAT MAKE U SO PERFECT…

Xu qi: Reconstruction the imperfect of ur own body of a gal. it take a big step to make this decision and for the one u love. So pls treasure it.

Wang tian cai n xie yun yi: FATE is impt in a relationship. Some are meant to be tog, some are not. Last but not least, fate does not come everytime. It might only come once in a lifetime. Once u missed it, that’s it…

Zheng wan ling: matchmaking and by telling other her occupation, gone case. Just wanna said..u love her or u love her job? If u love her, why u f**ing care abt her job? It Still a decent job.

The daughter of wan tian cai: Do u believe in unconditioned love?

Last but not least, outer beauty will not last forever, it the inner beauty…

Outer beauty will EXPAND AND CONTRACT..Does it mean it expand..u deserted her..n when contract…u wanted her again…pls remember..we also had the right to CHOOSE...你没想像中爱我
词：石欣卉曲：So Million
制作：曾偉祺
演唱：石欣卉
你小心翼翼牵我手
其实是担忧藏不住我
自尊也投降活在她之下
我好傻
你字字句句说你不爱她
那又是什么让你害怕
我疑惑但是原谅因为你留下
我好傻
不是我不说就不在意空等候
原来你没想像中那么爱我
我不懂该拿什么安慰我的难受
你的存在让我更寂寞
你寸步不离像天使的她
挥霍我的爱从不放心上
我有一丝无奈也有一些明白
该放开
不是我不说就不在意空等候
原来你没想像中那么爱我
我不能再从你的怀抱感觉到什么
不爱我别再说假装爱那是撒盐在伤口
啊~~ 谁说我不在意空等候
原来你从来都没深刻爱我
我才懂不是我不心痛
其实是心没了感受
呜~~~
你没想像中爱我

Nice Trip @ Sentosa - Sickening pple! - When will you change?

2008-07-20T12:50:00.001+08:00

got lotsa of things to said...let's start with the bad encounter first before i forgot

Firstly, The China pple...i am not showing racist problem...but PLS be more automatic can a not?
i had China friend also but with them...i just feel so unfair for them becos "THOSE SAME KIND OF PPLE" spoilt their good image in Singapore...so sad to say that..we only look at Majority..not minority..whenever i off sch, i will encounter those stupid, non-automatic china pple riding their bicycle. of course..it not a sin riding it..it the way they use the passenger pathway..imagine a couple..bf riding..gf seating sideway at the back and keep moving her legs vigorously in the MIDDLE of the passengerway..then tell me...how do u expect passenger to walk in this way? WTF..I really hate Ma bao shan becos of this..he is the one who allowed them to use it...and yesterday when we go sentosa, those pple is either kiasu or kiasi that they cannot alight off the bus or cannot take the railway...squeeze n pushing is the best solution they can come to..and worst still, spit out of nowhere in front of everyone as if it is ok to do so..luckily my niece never saw it if not, she will kinda "imitate" it.

Btw, i will just complain n take a snap of their pict whenever i encounter it and complain to the HDB Board..i cannot stand it anymore..they are really.. KNN, BHB, SBHG pple...and 1 weird thing to said..whenever we give negative comments, they will said all kinds of rubbish which they purposely said it cos they KNOW WE DO NOT UNDERSTAND!...n i just wanna said 1 thing to them..."then what the hell u come singapore? stay at china if u think there is better...wah lao no one force u to come here, but if u are already here...get used to our culture moron...(this is only for THOSE KIND OF PPLE, not our kind of pple)

Second issue is those WHITE INDANS! Wah lao...i never had anything against indian until now..yesterday at sentosa, i was like watching wat sea of angel fish or wat..i dun even remember...and 1 whole bunch of bastards and bitches rushing in, pushing everyone aside..and due to i cannot stand it..i want to get out of the way n 1 of the bloody guy stepped on my shoes that prevent me from moving on and i said excuse me for 2 x SHOUTING ok yeah SHOUTING and nothing happen. This was where i shouted...u stepped on my foots..u IDOIT! and nothing happen n i just forcily dragged my shoes out..the tour guide saw it and pretend not to saw WTF !
and becos michelle was still inside she overheard them imitate my sentence back..i was so dulan that almost my whole day was spoilt by them..but with nicole and natalie..it wun happen haha..

I just wanna said...GET BACK TO UR FUCKING COUNTRIES AND LEARN WAT IS THE BASIC MANNER...AND DUN TALK THOSE LANGUAGE WE DUN UNDERSTAND..WE ARE NOT BLACKIE FOR GOD SAKE...AND DUN TELL ME U ARE SO BLACK OR IS IT SO DARK THAT U CANNOT SEE OR R U BLIND? i am just referring to those uncivilised white indians which i dun even know where they come from...

I wanna thanx Kelyn n michelle for all the nice pict tat they take and thanx kelyn so sending it personally to me before editing so nice of her..btw we look kinda alike hor..later i show u the pict u all might think tat way too...

And lastly..i just hope that someone can stop being so calculative...u might comment something or wat i dun care..i just want to know when will you change? i know i had a lot of things to change also but urs is really very jialat to the max...it a minor issue but it affecting our daily life...dun you find it tedious by keep remembering..u ever do this to me before and i will said it out later to let u remember...u only make that person feel bad that all and wat else do u get? i said sorry and yet u still rake up the past again n again...is it fun for u?

Just remember wat i said...dun regret it when u lose it..it will not come back as n when u like..
u might get the favouritism from them but NOT ME...
and when that's happen dun ask me why!

I will continue later..need to accompany ah ma eat ba kut teh...

if i still remember...
will upload photo later.

石欣卉 - 我知道我变漂亮了

2008-07-10T23:14:00.000+08:00

Fall in love with this song.

Saw today episode. the gal is just using her ex bf to pay for the surgery fees..
n went out with another guy...will u all do this to ur bf or vice versa?

After this show..i realised...appearance is not forever..what is impt is inside. of course everyone will still mind look at least presentable...wat is impt is inside.maybe when u reach the age of 30..u will know wat i mean gals..

Bao bao went for reservist n tat when i realise he is so impt to me..cos...
w/o him waking me up
w/o hearing his voice oftenly
w/o him eating dinner with me..
w/o him sleeping beside me...

it only 1 week but to me it seems like a decade...

but pls dun make me angry again n me too la...

Dun regret when u lose it...it will never come bk as n when...

《一切完美》主题曲
过去的批评嘲讽 (Let it go Let it go)
过去的轻蔑冷落 (Let it go Let it go)
有些人口不饶人却忘了瞧瞧自己又有什么资格
时刻都善良待人 (Let’s move on Let’s move on)
时刻都做好本分 (Let’s move on Let’s move on)
有些人心思浅薄绝不是宽容自暴自弃的理由
也许确实也受过言语打击也许
从来也没什么好际遇但千万别将勇气深锁在阴影里我们又不会妨碍这世界（的）美丽
我知道我变漂亮了
我知道我被注意了
曾难过失落微笑一下就过外在的美貌容易戳破
内在的美好细水长流
我知道我变漂亮了
我知道我也豁达了
不自卑不埋怨就算还差一点点
用内涵弥补一切缺陷内在的美
迷住每个人的眼
用内涵弥补一切缺陷内在的美
迷住每个人的眼

Me n Evie/sister/personal PICTS!!!

2008-07-06T01:34:00.000+08:00

Just watch 2 movie at one go with my cousins damn shiok!

but so sad never take photo

kelyn...must take more the next meeting ah

Dun feel like saying anything

i got a lot of natural expression all taken by law thanx!

Cos i meet them after lesson n i was so hungry until i almost dying

so a lot of funny pict cos i half dead by walking that slope...

but had funs still...

Just wanna say i love kelyn, michelle, claudia, lynn..nicole. nat, mavis, all my cousin...

n of course, my friends like

Evie, bing, yan, felicia, bapo, n all my other friends..too many...

I kinda miss my poly friend..eve,daph,mich they all..wonder how they are now..

Regards

kim

Wat u really want n who is the one..

2008-06-30T15:16:00.000+08:00

Sat: Go for tutorial then meet up with Godfrey. Bought tou hua for my bao bao. But not at Home. Haiz. Sad. End.

Sun: Yesterday went out with jayson cos he is going back army for 1 weeks or so. so take care ya

but this is not the main issue.

My main issue is my BAO BAO..no matter how many times i said dui bu qi..u still forgive me...

i am glad that u say yes without hesitation but of course it does not mean..u are happy abt this.

Everyone must be scolding me n saying that i am in the wrong or excuse or i still had something on Jayson.

Well...i had to admit i still had some feels for him but at this age at this point. somehow out of sudden, my mind will keep flashing my hamburger image. i am 2? yr old not young anymore not playing this kind of love-here-n-there game.

Know u read my blog know u unhappy abt this know that u might not allow me to meet him anymore as in jiu qing fu ran or wat...but i just wanna u to know that i know ur presence all along..i love u a lot as u should know it by then...i might have talk to u in a very bad way sometime cos i already treat u as someone as close to me that everything abt me is being exposed on ur side n not others. that is the REAL me...the REAL Fries u know..if i show differently u might had think: wat's wrong with me?

At least we did talk things out yesterday n u trust me 100% completely...n the issue is abt other things. SSo sorry that due to stomachache did not talk much.

U call up..hearing ur voice make me smile..i dun even know when i started to love u so much...even though tat 2 days i with other guys..but all i talk abt is U to them or abt others previous stuff. they might not be keen to heard it anyway but i like it can le..haha

Hope my basic theory passed. will not disappoint u n of course at the same time proven that i got common sense haha.

I am meeting my cousin soon. so happy..sat here i come. no matter wat happen just wanna said..our kinship is strong so dun tried to break it away or watever..cos blood is thicker than water..to us u r still a water...

Last fri meet up with my sister birthday..seems a bit boring cos we sort of have the chiong mood but anyway..seeing both of them so happy i am happy for them too..ck bought psp for bing so GOOD..(*I am HINTING u bao bao my birthday is coming..)

That's all

Need to study my BT

Regards

kim

想念是会呼吸的痛...1 nite stand...thoughts running wild..

2008-06-25T00:35:00.000+08:00

Saturday: Meet up with Jayson to take Mum medication he changed a lot as in mature

Sunday: Grandma cook a lot of thing for me to eat. So sweet. how i wish she were here everyday!

Monday: Went dinner with Ting, bing & Ruoying Last min, Yan on pain. Hope u feel better

Issue:

Firstly, i have to THANK my pretty cousin for the beautiful Natalie pic. i just forgot to mention on the first blog

Btw, have anyone tried/encounter one nite stand? it just a ques..i never never tried it so dun ask me...it just that i wonder those pple how they done it with someone totally no feel at all? i wonder....

Today which is 24/6 is someone that i had celebrate birthday with that past few yrs.

Happy birthday Dave...he might not see this anyway but i wish u all the best ya...this song just reflect my feel on that spur of moment ONLY.

想念是会呼吸的痛

它活在我身上所有角落

哼你爱的歌会痛

看你的信会痛

连沈默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛

它流在血液中来回滚动

后悔不贴心会痛

恨不懂你会痛

想见不能见最痛

Nowadays, me n bao bao...just kinda feel that something is not connecting dun know why...

Getting frm back to worse...Hope it get better

Oh gosh! Exam is coming soon & i had not started revising..all my mind is just Yan n bing birthday celebration!

Can someone wake me up! LOL..

Sick..Down..moody

2008-06-19T19:46:00.000+08:00

Officially first blog written here

Today was on MC...Sick...No mood to do anything..seems that everything screwed up

But got lotsa thing to say

1) Father's day was fun...bring my dad eat curry fish head Watch Incredible Hunk etc

2) Grandma birthday is very warm hearty really...

3) Feel that no matter how much i do, i always do wrongly...

4) Me n bao bao not getting married but luckily, we are still together so far so good.

5) Feel that my Honour is further n further away for me

6) Still an idiot doing the sony vegas video haha...

I just bought a Heroic Rendezvous Bag that cost me $1xx+

Without thinking,i just bought it cos to me it GORGEOUS!

I will just upload my pic then talk more when the mood come

Kimmie Story Paradise

14.02.2012 The day when i am Mrs Wong

So tired...Really tired....

Thoughts and feelings

Emo..crying.. reality...unpredictable....

Lost.....Reality.........Cruelty

2010

Hear me or LET ME DIE to the death journey

My Journey

Must Say Happy Things

法克U! Manual Car? Friends?

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Du lan....

Wonderful life surrounding me by my friends and relative

Thoughts in my mind

Learning

Update永遠在身邊Baby boy永遠永遠手牽手 一步兩步一起走 永遠永遠要記得 我們要一起生活

Pass le..next stage -FTT..gonna be "zhai nu" My DREAM Car

22 yrs vs now

BE INDEPENDENT KIM

Love ya....

Something is wrong with me...Merry xmas & Hapi New year

Thoughts and feelings....

I love u all...i becoming better...i be strong

Beause of YOU...i'm giving up my life

I'm Yours...

Stressful...Temptation...

Xin Fu de nu ren...我会好好过..i am sorry..

Happy! Pass my exam! 1st LV bag!

Happiness? Rich vs Poor

So Tired of being a human being

Happy birthday cousin...dun ask too much

生气不如争气...wo de peng you shi???

I Had Enough

A meaningless birthday

Happy birthday to all the August babies...

What Hurts the most is..........

因为我的不完美使你完美-你没想像中爱我

Nice Trip @ Sentosa - Sickening pple! - When will you change?

石欣卉 - 我知道我变漂亮了

Me n Evie/sister/personal PICTS!!!

Wat u really want n who is the one..

想念是会呼吸的痛...1 nite stand...thoughts running wild..

Sick..Down..moody

Update永遠在身邊Baby boy永遠永遠手牽手一步兩步一起走永遠永遠要記得我們要一起生活